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I haven´t written a journal for a very long time. It was because I usually I do not have much time, and what is more, I´m writing huge emails-blogs from Latvia every week. DA journal is dedicated to more personal feelings and I did not have many really personal (except finding new friend ). I think it is high time to finally write something from me also here...
So, for those who don´t know, I´m on Erasmus in Latvia. Erasmus is an exchange programm between countries of EU. I am already almost 4 months out of my country and I´m having fantastic time . But as many of you already seen, my contacts became worst with many of you. Of course it doesn´t mean that I have arguments with you... just we don´t speak too much. I´d like to write about some weird thing that has happened to me some time ago.
Few weeks ago I had a situation that in short time two persons said that I am really important for them. One of them said that loves me and second one said that she almost love me. My family was joking that I have the best way of flirting: ignoring. But for me it was... you know, quite scary. I didn´t do anything unusual and people are getting in love with you. It´s funny because when you are alone noone is interested in you, and when you are not looking for anyone, suddenly people are chasing you like... a cat.
You know, I am a egoist. And hedonist. And independent. Like a cat. So someone may say: ok, what´s the problem? If they are offering you love, just take it, have fun, and then leave it.
Well, maybe I am a cat, but not an asshole. I wanted to stop their feelings, but I was really surprised when they say that it´s just impossible... That they can´t just forget about me. For you it may be obvious, but for me... well, if someone will say: stop loving me! I would stop. And they... Well, I was pretty scared.
Chasing cat...
On the other hand, few days ago I noticed how lonely I´m here. I mean, physically. To hug someone, touch someone. My life is going so fast that usually I can not see that. You know, when you are out of family, friends for so long time this loneliness is going stronger and stronger...
But I found someone here. It´s not a true love, but we are not lonely here, away from my country. And I also, as I already said, have true friend who is supporting me when I have worst day. And thank you for the rest of cool people who wants to speak with me: Kamira, Wereth, Riann, Lia, Cyp...
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